The frustration of living with an irresponsible diabetic!

Frustration: 1. The condition of being frustrated
                  2. Something that frustrates
                  3. (a) the prevention or hindering of a potentially satisfying activity
                      (b) the emotional reaction to such prevention that may involve aggression


Today I am frustrated.


My boyfriend is one of those really charismatic people that everybody loves. He's charming and funny and he loves me. All of these things I, and everyone else around us, knows. But he's also very very frustrating!!
You see, my boyfriend has diabetes, type 1 diabetes. This doesn't frustrate me though, oh no, what frustrates me is the fact that he is irresponsible with his diabetes. Before I met him, I didn't know a lot about diabetes, or diabetics. Yet now...now I believe that I am pretty up to speed and experienced in living with a diabetic - especially an irresponsible one.
This afternoon my gorgeous man came home from work on his lunch break (he's a carpenter if you wanted to know) and I was genuinely really happy to see him, but then he started to act weird and I thought oh dear, here we go again.
Now, I don't know if you have any experience of diabetes but, when someone with diabetes has low blood sugar they begin to act strange...the best way to describe it is like a funny drunk.
So, he has come home from work, and he starts to act weird. Of course I can see by his actions that his sugars are low. He fights me on this every time, he never believes me when I tell him his sugars are low - but this is because, after a certain point, he doesn't realise himself that they are!
This is why he frustrates me, his hypos (that's what its called when the sugar levels are low) are too regular for any diabetic, and it is always me that has to be the bad guy and make him have something sugary to eat or drink. Half the time he is in an unconscious state of consciousness (if you understand what I mean) and I think today was one of those.
But this afternoon he was looking at me in contempt as I found him some pepsi and made him some toast, and he didn't stop even when his sugars were reaching a normal level. I am so tired of being the bad guy with his diabetes but I'm even more tired of him letting himself get into such a state on a regular basis. Basically he worries me to the point of frustration! So, we have had a little fall out and he's gone back to work.


To top it all off...my brother knocked my phone out of my hand this morning onto a concrete floor, so now my beautiful raspberry has scratches all over it!


It's just one of those days where I am going to have to just smile and hope it gets better!




Happy Friday to you :)

New to this blogging business...

Well here goes, I'm trying out 'blogging'!
I have always seen blogging as a teenage phase, where angry teens air their grievances by theoretically shouting at the world via the internet, and yet, now I am trying to give it a go myself.

I'm bored. I'm a bored graduate, and I have no idea what I am going to do with my life. I thought that if I went to university, and got myself a degree, the world would be my oyster (cliché alert!). However, its turned out that perhaps there's more to this career malarky than I believed.
I have my degree, its a degree in law by the way, and since I was 9 I dreamt of being a lawyer....until I studied it at university. Now I have no idea what I can or want to do with my life. So I am always asking myself the same question (and everyone else keeps asking me the same question too),
Where To From Here??
At the moment I really dont have an answer, I have ideas of possibilities but, so far, no reality!